還有兩天便是我的生日，沒有太多的興奮，因這陣子有太多事發生。而且生日當天又要工作，而本來請了假去澳門玩，又要出trip做嘢，搞到要做完嘢先可以join..... 唉!!!

但今天好友帶了自己做的cheese cake送我，很感動。其實身邊有咁多人愛錫自己，我已很滿足！

祝所有人及自己生日快樂，身體健康!!

Cheers!!

Dear JC,

How are you dear? Everything OK there? You have left us a month already but I still cannot accept that you have gone, seems that you will call me anytime for a dinner, a drink or happy hour. Whenever, I go to the bars that we used to go, I just want to give you a call and ask you to join ... then, I will remind myself that you can't join anymore...

For the past 9 years, you always my best friend, always stand by me. We have share so much happiness, tears and secret. When I feel boring, you will invite me for a drink. When I was down, you just catch the prefect timing to say hello to me and cheer me up. There's lots of valueable memory between you and me.  

Dear, you know, you always so impatient, once you want to go somewhere, you just go without thinking and it happens again this time.. you are going so quickly... everything unexpected. We just having a wonderful gathering in January, then I met you in hospital after 2 weeks... and you go after another 2 weeks... totally unexpected.. 

When I was in your funeral, I told myself not to cry as I know that you dun want us to do so, you just want all your friends and relative to be happy, so I didn't cry initially and thought that you will stand up and tell us, "Hey men, only kidding you guys, let's go to drink, bill on me!!"

Of course, you didnt do so, I start to realize you have left us already, no more gatheirng, no more drink, no more laugh, no more sharing, no more support..no matter what, I know you won't forget us, even we can't meet all the time, but you always on my mind. I will meet you in my dreams, you will share my happiness and sadness because I won't forget your love and caring, I will keep you in a good place of my heart, so that you were be there with me anywhere, anytime..Also, I believe that we will meet sometimes in heaven and we could have another page of good life from there.

Dear, take care you there, no worry about us, we will take care ourselves, do whatever we do as usual and you will be there with us...always..

P.S.: I miss you, miss you so much...

Love     

這幾天得知好友生病了…很擔心。認識他於微事，剛出來社會做事，他是我工作上的師兄，教識我許多；包括工作與遊戲都有。

近兩年已看見太多身邊的人有病了；真的令人心寒。現只望好友檢查後，證實沒事，可以好快再跟我們飲嘢，談心、相聚…

JC, 我真的很掛住你呀…可以的話，請與我們聯絡，容許我們關心你多一點點…

將感情放低真的很難，但再難也要放低…

今天看到你跟她一起午飯，知道你很少跟別人午膳，我更加清楚你對她的重視。當時心中一痛，還要裝作平常跟同事說笑。飯後看到如沐春風用的你，心中更是難受。但如果一切可令你快樂，我也只可祝福你…

心中只跟自己說：放低，請放低吧！只有放低才不致令你難受，也不致令我失守於好朋友的位置；但一切真的很難、很難…

 

昨天看了 "生日快樂"，看之前有expectation，看之後也沒有失望。覺得好看因為主角在感情中的無奈，雖然有點戲劇性，但也很貼近觀眾的感受，可能你同我都曾有相似的經歷。

例如跟情人有何許爭執後，自覺對方如何錯都好。但當你有事時，對方從後的一個緊緊擁抱，便會把你溶化。

又例如自己明明愛著他，但又要扮演他的好友，做著情侶的動作；但又因沒"明份"而去安份著朋友的角色…

看著看著，我哭了。不是因為它的結局，而是看到某些似曾相識的情節，心裡觸動，哭了。所以，對於我來說，我很喜歡這電影，不知道你又如何呢？

今天早上在返工的途中，竟遇到我多年前的初戀情人。記得當日認識他在少年時，之後很快就拍拖、吵架、第三者，再各自出國讀書。往後在外的數年，對他依然唸唸不忘，愛得深也苦。

回來後，急不得立刻見他。就如一般的故事一樣，物是人非，他亦有要好的女友、之後很快亦結婚了；而我認識了Mr. R。我們亦再沒有聯絡…

今天，看到他時第一眼竟認不出他，仔細看後，再想一想才把他認出，我想他也應該認出我，但大家也沒有相應，直至坐完成程小巴也只是各自落車。

有時真係覺得愛情太有趣，她可以靜靜地來，不說一聲。離開也可以很突然。有時她會返轉頭，但有時就會永不回頭 。當她走後；你對著曾經深愛的人，除了回憶、也只得回憶！

你有沒有試過一種經驗：一邊聽著心愛的歌曲，一邊又將與他一起的回憶放在心裡剪輯、成為不同的畫面會在腦中閃出？這樣，一首震懾你心的MV便誕生了。

每當我失落時，心中的MV便會不停播，有時竟發現一些忘了許久的記憶竟然會在此刻浮現出來…

現在就停下來，想一想；你上一次播放你心中的MV在何時呢？

不知從何時開始，我們之間有了一幅圍牆。沒有任何特別事情發生，卻又突然變得生分了。沒有聯絡、沒有話題、沒有了以往的親切。無論如何嘗試、也感無從入手；這一切好像在告訴我真的要死心了，很久沒試過這種委屈的感覺。當然，我明日到這些委屈是源自自己；但總是有點難受和心痛的感覺…